I don't want to end this blog. It will still be a blog about my life in general and fun stuffs. However, I have a new blog now that's a bit more serious. I'll not post to it all the time, but they will possibly be more interesting and will definitely be interesting to write. Here's the link. To quote the quote wall, it's a cool blog about being awesome.
http://make-a-stand.blogspot.com/
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
This semester I have learned many things that have shifted my perspective on life. My Book of Revelation class has been more mind opening and perspective shifting than any other single force in my life. It tells of how dark, low, and filthy the world will become. Of how hard it will be to avoid the pitfalls that abound. Of how only those who remain faithful to the very end will survive the terror, and the glory that will be theirs. Reading section 76 of the D&C emphasized this whole idea. It illustrates with vivid detail the end result of the story played out in Revelation.
Section 76 is a major paradigm shift. So much is implied and so much is explained, it is hard to accept that all this can be real. After The Great Tribulation explained in Revelation, we will be rewarded beyond all we can believe. I believed that the Telestial Kingdom was just like the temporal earth. I was shocked to realize that the glory of even the Telestial Kingdom will be more than I know now. Here the Holy Spirit will dwell throughout eternity. They receive the administering of angels and will be heirs of salvation. One direct quote is that “the glory of the Telestial… surpasses all understanding.” If that is the inheritance of “they who are thrust down to hell,” than what am I worthy of? What are my non-member friends worthy of?
Next, comes the Terrestrial Kingdom. Those who dwell eternally there will receive the glory of Christ. They will be denied His fullness, but those who “died without law” and “honorable men of the earth” will be with Jesus. I have family who left the church. They were moral and upright people, but they were no longer active members. Although I am not certain, since I don’t know how the judgment works, I would guess that this is where they will spend eternity. They will be in the presence of Christ, the Son, but not in the Father’s kingdom. It is so wonderful to know that good people, like some of my family and most of my friends, will receive a reward that is more than mortal minds can comprehend.
The final vision is of the Celestial Kingdom. I desperately want to be with Heavenly Father, but this is even more than that. D&C 76 describes those who dwell in the Celestial Kingdom as “after the order of Enoch… [who] shall dwell in the presence of God and his Christ forever and ever. [They are] come unto Mount Zion, and unto the city of the living God, the heavenly place, the holiest of all.” After reading this I turned to my reading for Revelation. In the final chapter, John states “And there shall be no more curse: but the throne of God and of the Lamb shall be in it; and his servants shall serve him:” Without doubt, the Celestial Kingdom is incomprehensibly more amazing than I can possibly imagine or describe.
The idea of the Celestial, Terrestrial, and Telestial Kingdoms is something so well known to me, that I never expected to experience so much shock and insight from reading section 79. For the early saints it was a more radical shift, but even for me this was a whole new idea. I know that God wants me to come home. “Home” is so wonderful, so amazing, so truly awesome, that I will always be grateful for the simple fact that God is trying to help me come home.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Tree Hugging, the Lord's Way
The Lord created our world. It is His hand that gave us all that is on it. As human beings, especially now, we often debate the proper way to care for the earth. It is our responsibility, and we generally recognize that. However, I think that this section, if read properly, can guide members in how to conduct their treatment of the environment.
Actually, before He gives instruction on how to treat the earth, God dictated other commandments. They are oft repeated requests: love others, keep the sabbath day holy, keep your eye single to His glory. All these are precursor commands. Before we are given any sort of authority over the earth, we must be faithful children of our Father. He has given us this land, and if we follow Him, we will be more inclined to treat it right and more worthy of the gift.
Once we have qualified to use the earth, we are told that it has been given to us for two purposes: "to strengthen the body and enliven the soul." Basically, if we love the Lord, we can use the earth in whatever way it improves our lives. Limitations are set by the seasons. All the fullness of the earth is ours, and we are to use it.
We are given the direct command to not use the earth to excess or by extortion. As in so many other areas, our use of the earth should be in moderation. If we don't use it at all, than we aren't improving the earth or our situation on it. God wants us to progress, so that's a problem. At the other end, if we use the earth wantonly without a thought about caring for it, we will spoil our gift. Though there is enough and to spare, we show our Father that we are responsible stewards by being careful with what we have.
I'm from the Pacific Northwest. The native land of tree huggers. This direction helps me see where I fit in with them and with the water wasters of the rest of the country.
Actually, before He gives instruction on how to treat the earth, God dictated other commandments. They are oft repeated requests: love others, keep the sabbath day holy, keep your eye single to His glory. All these are precursor commands. Before we are given any sort of authority over the earth, we must be faithful children of our Father. He has given us this land, and if we follow Him, we will be more inclined to treat it right and more worthy of the gift.
Once we have qualified to use the earth, we are told that it has been given to us for two purposes: "to strengthen the body and enliven the soul." Basically, if we love the Lord, we can use the earth in whatever way it improves our lives. Limitations are set by the seasons. All the fullness of the earth is ours, and we are to use it.
We are given the direct command to not use the earth to excess or by extortion. As in so many other areas, our use of the earth should be in moderation. If we don't use it at all, than we aren't improving the earth or our situation on it. God wants us to progress, so that's a problem. At the other end, if we use the earth wantonly without a thought about caring for it, we will spoil our gift. Though there is enough and to spare, we show our Father that we are responsible stewards by being careful with what we have.
I'm from the Pacific Northwest. The native land of tree huggers. This direction helps me see where I fit in with them and with the water wasters of the rest of the country.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Shadows in the Paint
I had wanted to revisit the Types and Shadows exhibit, but as my daily life continued to build towards finals into one round of non-stop studying or brainless slacking, the opportunity continued to evade me. I was thrilled to find out that not only was I required to go, our class was going to be given a tour.
The first thing I realized is that not all the displays are great. At least not for everyone. The girl with the bread really wasn’t that impressive in my mind. After having it explained, I saw the idea behind it, but it never connected. But then moving onto the beautiful picture with the glass of water, I kept getting the feeling that there was more than I could see. The glass was so clear and so close to reach. But at the same time, it was so far away. The woman in the background was experiencing exactly what I was feeling. Her face looked like she wanted the glass so desperately, but just couldn’t get to it.
The other picture I really liked was the Prodigal Son painting of the table. I spent a good 10 to 15 minutes standing there and ignoring everything, trying to understand the picture. I still don’t get it all, but I got the most general, overall idea of it. It fascinated me how, if I removed the middle panel, the other two would fit together. To me it seemed to say that I will be shaped by all my experiences, good and bad. My life will be changed by all my actions. But I don’t need to experience all the bad things to have a complete life. It was a beautiful illustration of how life is changed by experience. I am planning some time during break, or just before Christmas to go back just for that painting. It really deserves more attention than I was able to give it.
Overall, I thought the exhibit was beautifully put together. Although I didn’t connect with all the images at first, or even second view, I can see how much deeper the meaning of each one goes. I am going to spend time looking at the art when there is no one talking to me. Despite how insightful and enjoyable the tour was, I also wanted some time to just allow the feelings to resonate with me. The spirit was easily felt when I got lost in the feelings of the art.
The first thing I realized is that not all the displays are great. At least not for everyone. The girl with the bread really wasn’t that impressive in my mind. After having it explained, I saw the idea behind it, but it never connected. But then moving onto the beautiful picture with the glass of water, I kept getting the feeling that there was more than I could see. The glass was so clear and so close to reach. But at the same time, it was so far away. The woman in the background was experiencing exactly what I was feeling. Her face looked like she wanted the glass so desperately, but just couldn’t get to it.
The other picture I really liked was the Prodigal Son painting of the table. I spent a good 10 to 15 minutes standing there and ignoring everything, trying to understand the picture. I still don’t get it all, but I got the most general, overall idea of it. It fascinated me how, if I removed the middle panel, the other two would fit together. To me it seemed to say that I will be shaped by all my experiences, good and bad. My life will be changed by all my actions. But I don’t need to experience all the bad things to have a complete life. It was a beautiful illustration of how life is changed by experience. I am planning some time during break, or just before Christmas to go back just for that painting. It really deserves more attention than I was able to give it.
Overall, I thought the exhibit was beautifully put together. Although I didn’t connect with all the images at first, or even second view, I can see how much deeper the meaning of each one goes. I am going to spend time looking at the art when there is no one talking to me. Despite how insightful and enjoyable the tour was, I also wanted some time to just allow the feelings to resonate with me. The spirit was easily felt when I got lost in the feelings of the art.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
The Things You Learn from Accounting 200
I was reading some articles for today's accounting assignment, and I am really enjoying it. Today's articles are very interesting, especially from a technological standpoint. One is about how wireless networks benefit a company, another is about supercomputers helping predict sales. The end of that second article greatly amused me.
Marketers at one retailer use the technology to find relationships between products purchased by a customer in a single shopping trip. "They found that if someone in a Midwestern city buys disposable diapers at 5 p.m., the most common thing he'll buy next is a six-pack of beer," says Thomas Blishok, an NCR vice president. So to boost snack sales, the store put a kiosk of chips near the diaper aisle. "Sales of snacks in that time period went up 17%."
So, I found this today. I'd forgotten about it. I just took the second exam (93!!!!) and so find this extra funny. Enjoy.
Marketers at one retailer use the technology to find relationships between products purchased by a customer in a single shopping trip. "They found that if someone in a Midwestern city buys disposable diapers at 5 p.m., the most common thing he'll buy next is a six-pack of beer," says Thomas Blishok, an NCR vice president. So to boost snack sales, the store put a kiosk of chips near the diaper aisle. "Sales of snacks in that time period went up 17%."
So, I found this today. I'd forgotten about it. I just took the second exam (93!!!!) and so find this extra funny. Enjoy.
Parallel Lines
As I sit here, contemplating the similarities in the Old Testament and early LDS exoduses, I am finding it hard to put into words. Although I'm not an artistic person, sometimes I am very visual. And this is just one of those times that I need a picture to help me. Like we discussed about the Types and Shadows exhibit, images can convey more than words ever could. Since the parallels between the situations fascinate me, I am going to show you some amazing Photoshop work that helps me make sense of what was going on.
Yeah, I sorta like Photoshop. The map starts at the top in bondage. This can also show spiritual bondage to Satan, not just physical bondage to mortal enemies. Then the followers of God wandered in the wilderness. They come to the mountain of the Lord, which is either an actual mountain (Sinai) or the temple in Kirtland. The best escape from spiritual bondage is found in the temple. This is followed by more wilderness wandering. It ends finally in the Promised Land, or Deseret/Utah. These lands are both mountainous regions. In them rests both living water and dead, salty water. We must personally come to Celestial safety and our eternal promised land. Right now, I think I'm in a wandering stage. Probably the one just before the mountain of the Lord, since I haven't been endowed in the temple yet. It's interesting how much time is spent in wandering because much of life really is just small progress from one stage to the next. Basically wandering. As long as I wander in the correct direction, I know I will eventually reach my eternal promised land.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Framework of Revelation
Section 42 of the Doctrine and Covenants teaches a myriad of important principles. However, I consider the framework it provides to be it's greatest contribution to the saints. The framework is not only that which it lays out in commandments and instruction, but even in the way it came to be.
Through revelation, Joseph Smith found answers to many questions. It can be difficult to realize that this applies to me as well. Reading Section 42 in the Joseph Smith Papers, I saw the questions Joseph and other leaders asked. These questions were the guiding force that spurred the revelation. Gathered together, church leaders considered the situation of their followers. Prayerfully, they decided which questions they needed answers to. They then turned again to the Lord, and asked those questions. Not only did they receive answers to those precise questions, other topics that were related, and important to God, were addressed. Later, the questions were removed, because the answers were what the church needed. However, seeing the questions teaches me that I can ask specific questions and faithfully expect an answer, if it is the question I need to ask.
The answers themselves also provide an important framework. Although many of them are time sensitive commands about the move to Ohio, the concepts are vital to saints of all ages. The section summary simplifies the content into this framework. Although I usually skip the summaries, I really like this one for the reason that it lays out the framework in simple terms, and I can then look for exactly what I am searching for more clarification on. I can see it in context, and then delve in deep.
1-10, The elders are called to preach the gospel, baptize converts, and build up the church;
Elders, like "my boys" (yes, I do call them that) from freshman year, are called to spread the good news of Christ. Throughout all of time, the Lord has relied on his faithful servants to go "unto all nations, kindreds, tongues and people" (1 Nephi 5:18). From Paul, the greatest missionary, to 19 year old boys of today, elders always have, and always will, be called to go forth to preach, baptize, and build. Since coming to BYU and meeting young men who want to go on missions, I have gained a new appreciation and testimony of missionary work. This is an eternal concept, and is outlined first in section 42.
11-12, They must be called and ordained, and are to teach the principles of the gospel found in the scriptures;
This is now the "how" to accompany the initial "what." Elders aren't just random volunteers who decide a mission would be fun, and promptly buy a plane ticket and start preaching. Although all members can be missionaries, those who are to dedicated their lives to the cause for a time must be called of God and ordained by the proper authority. The whole process of mission papers and calls shows how this is still in affect today.
13-17, They are to teach and prophesy by the power of the Spirit;
Continuing with "how" missionary work is to be carried out, the Lord explains how those called are to deliver their message. It won't just be a memorized schpeel that the missionary personally connects with. The Spirit must be present and very involved in teaching. Even in church this is important. I know I connect best with different teachers. But I can get something meaningful from any lesson in which both me and the teacher have the Spirit with us. Since investigators may not yet understand the Spirit, and definitely don't have the gift of the Holy Ghost given after baptism, the missionary must teach by the Spirit to make sure it is there.
18-29, The saints are commanded not to kill, steal, lie, lust, commit adultery, or speak evil against others;
The basic commandments that God has expected of His children for all time are reiterated. It's basically the 10 commandments in the language of the early saints. This is a reminder that just because we have the restored gospel, and all sorts of new revelation, we still need to follow the original commands of God.
30-39, Laws governing the consecration of properties are set forth;
Honestly, I don't think I could live the law of consecration. So reading this always makes me feel a bit overwhelmed. But at the same time, they show how all will be cared for in God's kingdom. Also, even though the full law of consecration is not currently in play, we use these same principles to govern tithes and offerings. It's really important to see what we are striving towards. For me at least, it's motivation to be more generous and grateful in the paying of tithes and offerings. I see why we do it, and what the Lord's final plan is.
40-52, The sick are to be healed through administrations and by faith;
Like the reminder of eternal commandments, this is a reminder that healing is still a miracle that comes through faith. The priesthood is one channel for healing, but faith is intrinsic to the action.
53-60, Scriptures govern the Church and are to be proclaimed to the world;
I have begin to grow in my testimony of scripture reading. These verses discuss how foundational to the church the scriptures are. Not only are they vital to the church, but they are to be proclaimed to all the world. This illustrates that the scriptures must be very important. They aren't just a supplement to church. If someone doesn't accept the Church, God seems to imply that if they have the scriptures, they will still be better off.
61-69, Site of the New Jerusalem and the mysteries of the kingdom shall be revealed;
I think I've said it before, but I'll say it again. I'm fascinated by prophesies about the end of time. Although it's just a promise for future knowledge, this gives me great hope and comfort. It shows that God does have a plan, and when we need to know the next part of it, we will be told.
70-73, Consecrated properties are to be used to support the Church officers;
Honestly, I didn't know that this was still in play so much. I knew that when the church was first formed, the leaders were supported monetarily, and I assumed that the First Presidency and Quorum of the Twelve probably had some sort of support in place. However, in class, we've talked about how all General Authorities at a certain level and above receive equal stipends. This makes so much sense to me. I am a business girl, and I totally see why the Lord would think that this is the proper way to do it. It will encourage modest and provident living. Also, it reinforces the idea that God's kingdom is always the same. He will always support his people, even economically.
74-93, Laws governing fornication, adultery, killing, stealing, and confession of sins are set forth.
After laying out His plan for His people, God explains the laws that govern this. Justice and Mercy both exist. Neither will rob the other. God says in what circumstances judgment is to be executed, and when mercy is to be extended. Although we are not to be a judgmental people, we must support God's law, and know when punishment is His will. This gives a good starting point from which our leaders may work.
I personally love it when someone gives me an outline. This is the Lord's outline about His plan which He is giving to me and his other children. It is a blessing to know this much about the expectations we are to live with.
Through revelation, Joseph Smith found answers to many questions. It can be difficult to realize that this applies to me as well. Reading Section 42 in the Joseph Smith Papers, I saw the questions Joseph and other leaders asked. These questions were the guiding force that spurred the revelation. Gathered together, church leaders considered the situation of their followers. Prayerfully, they decided which questions they needed answers to. They then turned again to the Lord, and asked those questions. Not only did they receive answers to those precise questions, other topics that were related, and important to God, were addressed. Later, the questions were removed, because the answers were what the church needed. However, seeing the questions teaches me that I can ask specific questions and faithfully expect an answer, if it is the question I need to ask.
The answers themselves also provide an important framework. Although many of them are time sensitive commands about the move to Ohio, the concepts are vital to saints of all ages. The section summary simplifies the content into this framework. Although I usually skip the summaries, I really like this one for the reason that it lays out the framework in simple terms, and I can then look for exactly what I am searching for more clarification on. I can see it in context, and then delve in deep.
1-10, The elders are called to preach the gospel, baptize converts, and build up the church;
Elders, like "my boys" (yes, I do call them that) from freshman year, are called to spread the good news of Christ. Throughout all of time, the Lord has relied on his faithful servants to go "unto all nations, kindreds, tongues and people" (1 Nephi 5:18). From Paul, the greatest missionary, to 19 year old boys of today, elders always have, and always will, be called to go forth to preach, baptize, and build. Since coming to BYU and meeting young men who want to go on missions, I have gained a new appreciation and testimony of missionary work. This is an eternal concept, and is outlined first in section 42.
11-12, They must be called and ordained, and are to teach the principles of the gospel found in the scriptures;
This is now the "how" to accompany the initial "what." Elders aren't just random volunteers who decide a mission would be fun, and promptly buy a plane ticket and start preaching. Although all members can be missionaries, those who are to dedicated their lives to the cause for a time must be called of God and ordained by the proper authority. The whole process of mission papers and calls shows how this is still in affect today.
13-17, They are to teach and prophesy by the power of the Spirit;
Continuing with "how" missionary work is to be carried out, the Lord explains how those called are to deliver their message. It won't just be a memorized schpeel that the missionary personally connects with. The Spirit must be present and very involved in teaching. Even in church this is important. I know I connect best with different teachers. But I can get something meaningful from any lesson in which both me and the teacher have the Spirit with us. Since investigators may not yet understand the Spirit, and definitely don't have the gift of the Holy Ghost given after baptism, the missionary must teach by the Spirit to make sure it is there.
18-29, The saints are commanded not to kill, steal, lie, lust, commit adultery, or speak evil against others;
The basic commandments that God has expected of His children for all time are reiterated. It's basically the 10 commandments in the language of the early saints. This is a reminder that just because we have the restored gospel, and all sorts of new revelation, we still need to follow the original commands of God.
30-39, Laws governing the consecration of properties are set forth;
Honestly, I don't think I could live the law of consecration. So reading this always makes me feel a bit overwhelmed. But at the same time, they show how all will be cared for in God's kingdom. Also, even though the full law of consecration is not currently in play, we use these same principles to govern tithes and offerings. It's really important to see what we are striving towards. For me at least, it's motivation to be more generous and grateful in the paying of tithes and offerings. I see why we do it, and what the Lord's final plan is.
40-52, The sick are to be healed through administrations and by faith;
Like the reminder of eternal commandments, this is a reminder that healing is still a miracle that comes through faith. The priesthood is one channel for healing, but faith is intrinsic to the action.
53-60, Scriptures govern the Church and are to be proclaimed to the world;
I have begin to grow in my testimony of scripture reading. These verses discuss how foundational to the church the scriptures are. Not only are they vital to the church, but they are to be proclaimed to all the world. This illustrates that the scriptures must be very important. They aren't just a supplement to church. If someone doesn't accept the Church, God seems to imply that if they have the scriptures, they will still be better off.
61-69, Site of the New Jerusalem and the mysteries of the kingdom shall be revealed;
I think I've said it before, but I'll say it again. I'm fascinated by prophesies about the end of time. Although it's just a promise for future knowledge, this gives me great hope and comfort. It shows that God does have a plan, and when we need to know the next part of it, we will be told.
70-73, Consecrated properties are to be used to support the Church officers;
Honestly, I didn't know that this was still in play so much. I knew that when the church was first formed, the leaders were supported monetarily, and I assumed that the First Presidency and Quorum of the Twelve probably had some sort of support in place. However, in class, we've talked about how all General Authorities at a certain level and above receive equal stipends. This makes so much sense to me. I am a business girl, and I totally see why the Lord would think that this is the proper way to do it. It will encourage modest and provident living. Also, it reinforces the idea that God's kingdom is always the same. He will always support his people, even economically.
74-93, Laws governing fornication, adultery, killing, stealing, and confession of sins are set forth.
After laying out His plan for His people, God explains the laws that govern this. Justice and Mercy both exist. Neither will rob the other. God says in what circumstances judgment is to be executed, and when mercy is to be extended. Although we are not to be a judgmental people, we must support God's law, and know when punishment is His will. This gives a good starting point from which our leaders may work.
I personally love it when someone gives me an outline. This is the Lord's outline about His plan which He is giving to me and his other children. It is a blessing to know this much about the expectations we are to live with.
Movies I want to see again
Soooo... totally supposed to be writing a post for D&C. I'll do that in a minute. First, I need to make a list of movies I've been wanting to re-watch for a while.
Aladdin
Chitty Chitty Bang Bang
Ever After
Beauty and the Beast
Emma (never seen it, wanna see it)
Lord of the Rings
Charlie Brown's Thanksgiving
MASH
Lion King
Pocahontas
Mulan
Bourne
Ok, now that this is out of my system, I can go write my homework post! :D
Aladdin
Chitty Chitty Bang Bang
Ever After
Beauty and the Beast
Emma (never seen it, wanna see it)
Lord of the Rings
Charlie Brown's Thanksgiving
MASH
Lion King
Pocahontas
Mulan
Bourne
Ok, now that this is out of my system, I can go write my homework post! :D
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Crandall Museum
So, last week I got a chance to go to a really interesting off-campus museum. I have gone to most of the on-campus ones, but this was really exciting, since it was "far away." Not that is was really far, but the Crandall Museum is on Center Street in Provo. And I don't have a car. Hence, it's normally way too far for me. My friend Ben drove Ari and I though, so all was good.
Being a bit of a history geek, I really enjoyed watching the development of printing. We started in Gutenburg's time. They had this MASSIVE press and showed us how to use it. They even cast a piece of type. It cooled crazy fast! They poured in burning hot printers' metal into the cast, and almost instantly it was solid.
The second room was probably my favorite. It was shown to us by Ben Franklin. He told us his history. How he became a printer, his love story with his wife, and many of his contributions. As I've said before, I love seeing the story of the people behind history. This was a great insight into who Ben Franklin, the grandfather of our country.
On top of hearing Ben Franklin’s history, we learned a bit about the physical process the Constitution and Declaration of Independence underwent. The Declaration was written, edited, reworked, ratified, and then signed. Then, it was rushed to the printer’s, late at night. By morning, several copies had been printed and were distributed throughout the colonies. The speed of the process was astounding. Plus, it was all done in secrecy. When we had been told this story, we were told to touch the type set that was in the press. It was type set molded from the same punches that formed the original letters for the first printing of the Declaration of Independence. To touch something that close to history was moving and exciting.
Our final stop on the tour was in a room the same size and shape as that in which the first copies of the Book of Mormon were printed. The room contained a pres s that was an exact replica of that original press for the Book of Mormon. It was really cool. We had seen how the presses had gotten smaller and more precise, but other than that, this press was basically the same as that which Guttenburg had invented. We looked at the type for the first few pages, and saw stacks of pages, 2,000 high, just as they would have been when the original printing happened. We even got to see how the books were bound.
At the end, we got to see a linotype machine and the ink rollers that replaced the old fashioned beaters. Those were both cool. The rollers were what I usually imagined when I thought of old-fashioned presses. The linotype machine was also awesome. It was like a massive, old type writer. Except, instead of putting words on paper, it put words on metal! That was super crazy.
The entire experience was wonderful. It made me happy to know that they are going to expand, and then have all the missionaries in the MTC come through the tour. I think it’s a worthwhile experience that all students who have the chance should take. I would not hesitate if I had another chance to visit. The one drawback is that it cost a ton if you don’t go with a group. So find a group, and have fun!
Being a bit of a history geek, I really enjoyed watching the development of printing. We started in Gutenburg's time. They had this MASSIVE press and showed us how to use it. They even cast a piece of type. It cooled crazy fast! They poured in burning hot printers' metal into the cast, and almost instantly it was solid.
The second room was probably my favorite. It was shown to us by Ben Franklin. He told us his history. How he became a printer, his love story with his wife, and many of his contributions. As I've said before, I love seeing the story of the people behind history. This was a great insight into who Ben Franklin, the grandfather of our country.
On top of hearing Ben Franklin’s history, we learned a bit about the physical process the Constitution and Declaration of Independence underwent. The Declaration was written, edited, reworked, ratified, and then signed. Then, it was rushed to the printer’s, late at night. By morning, several copies had been printed and were distributed throughout the colonies. The speed of the process was astounding. Plus, it was all done in secrecy. When we had been told this story, we were told to touch the type set that was in the press. It was type set molded from the same punches that formed the original letters for the first printing of the Declaration of Independence. To touch something that close to history was moving and exciting.
Our final stop on the tour was in a room the same size and shape as that in which the first copies of the Book of Mormon were printed. The room contained a pres s that was an exact replica of that original press for the Book of Mormon. It was really cool. We had seen how the presses had gotten smaller and more precise, but other than that, this press was basically the same as that which Guttenburg had invented. We looked at the type for the first few pages, and saw stacks of pages, 2,000 high, just as they would have been when the original printing happened. We even got to see how the books were bound.
At the end, we got to see a linotype machine and the ink rollers that replaced the old fashioned beaters. Those were both cool. The rollers were what I usually imagined when I thought of old-fashioned presses. The linotype machine was also awesome. It was like a massive, old type writer. Except, instead of putting words on paper, it put words on metal! That was super crazy.
The entire experience was wonderful. It made me happy to know that they are going to expand, and then have all the missionaries in the MTC come through the tour. I think it’s a worthwhile experience that all students who have the chance should take. I would not hesitate if I had another chance to visit. The one drawback is that it cost a ton if you don’t go with a group. So find a group, and have fun!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Gathering the Future
Gathering. It's an interesting word. What exactly does a gathering imply, particularly the gathering of the saints in the last days? Does it just mean we all end up in the same place? Or do we all come for the same reasons? And do we really gather to one place? It seems like everyone in the church has a very firm belief in their own particular view of the gathering. The major difference is whether we will all be gathered to Missouri or will be gathered in our own stakes around the world. Honestly, I don't care about that. I will follow the spirit and the prophet, and end up where I personally need to be.
Right now I need to be at BYU. For many members, this is part of the gathering. We come here to find friends within the church and grow in faith. I know that my testimony has grown exponentially for my time here. My first year was just acclimating to the idea of a gathering of saints. And then it exploded. My knowledge from classes first year started to really sink in and everything suddenly became real! This is my place right now in the gathering. I grow and increase in faith from this opportunity. As I take full advantage of my short time here, I will be prepared to head into the world for the next stage in my gathering.
Right now I need to be at BYU. For many members, this is part of the gathering. We come here to find friends within the church and grow in faith. I know that my testimony has grown exponentially for my time here. My first year was just acclimating to the idea of a gathering of saints. And then it exploded. My knowledge from classes first year started to really sink in and everything suddenly became real! This is my place right now in the gathering. I grow and increase in faith from this opportunity. As I take full advantage of my short time here, I will be prepared to head into the world for the next stage in my gathering.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
My Personal Role
Last Thursday was probably my favorite day of D&C so far. We spent the entire hour dedicated to discussing Section 25, the revelation to Emma Smith. Usually the discussion is "Emma was a great woman who collected our hymns. Why are the hymns important?" I was surprised by a verse-by-verse analysis. It was the most intense and enlightening lesson I have heard in a long time.
The first point we discussed was the reality of the phrase “my daughter.” God is our father. He is not a distant father; He is very intimate and personal. My spiritual growth over the past six months has focused on the idea that my Heavenly Father loves me, personally and sincerely. I gained a greater witness that God cares deeply for his children.
I noticed Emma was promised an inheritance in Zion, which has helped me when I’ve wondered if women will get to create worlds of our own in the Celestial Kingdom. I love using my imagination, and I want the chance to create worlds. I believed I would have that chance if I wanted it, and if I honored my covenants. But the promise to Emma made it clear that I will have “worlds without number.”
“Elect lady” then took on a new meaning to me. Every elect lady has a calling in the home. While men are the providers and protectors of the family, women are nurturers, comforters, and peace-makers. No matter how much I love my dad, my mother was my warmest fire in the coldest winter. Emma was exactly who Joseph needed. She was his home. Without her, Joseph would have fallen at the first blow.
The Lord takes a special interest in Emma, to show her what she’s capable of, and encourages her to act as scribe and teacher. As Joseph translates, Emma is given authority to record the holy words, helping her to realize her own special mission. Her authority is closely connected to his, providing an image of the relationship God intends for husbands and wives. She also is told to exhort the church. God recognizes that she understands the scriptures and has the capability to expound and teach them effectively. She will be guided by the spirit, and given the same authority of any male teacher. I love that Emma got to be both a loving companion and an ordained servant in the work. Emma’s life provides a message of hope that, as a woman, I am highly capable of learning and teaching.
Along with encouraging Emma in her pursuits, the Lord assures her that she will be supported by Joseph. Where I am in life, I can understand the relief this encouragement would provide. I am trying to make some major decisions about the direction my life will take. Will I be able to keep a job? What if I get married, will I be able to graduate? Would a degree in a field I love truly benefit me? Not only does God support the righteous desires of His daughters, He also expects His sons to support them in achieving their dreams. I will not only be able to follow my dreams, I won’t have to do it on my own.
I know that God loves me. He loves all of His daughters. This divine love will not leave me without support. I know that I have a very real and important purpose here, and that I am capable fulfilling it. My Father in Heaven will help me to come Home.
The first point we discussed was the reality of the phrase “my daughter.” God is our father. He is not a distant father; He is very intimate and personal. My spiritual growth over the past six months has focused on the idea that my Heavenly Father loves me, personally and sincerely. I gained a greater witness that God cares deeply for his children.
I noticed Emma was promised an inheritance in Zion, which has helped me when I’ve wondered if women will get to create worlds of our own in the Celestial Kingdom. I love using my imagination, and I want the chance to create worlds. I believed I would have that chance if I wanted it, and if I honored my covenants. But the promise to Emma made it clear that I will have “worlds without number.”
“Elect lady” then took on a new meaning to me. Every elect lady has a calling in the home. While men are the providers and protectors of the family, women are nurturers, comforters, and peace-makers. No matter how much I love my dad, my mother was my warmest fire in the coldest winter. Emma was exactly who Joseph needed. She was his home. Without her, Joseph would have fallen at the first blow.
The Lord takes a special interest in Emma, to show her what she’s capable of, and encourages her to act as scribe and teacher. As Joseph translates, Emma is given authority to record the holy words, helping her to realize her own special mission. Her authority is closely connected to his, providing an image of the relationship God intends for husbands and wives. She also is told to exhort the church. God recognizes that she understands the scriptures and has the capability to expound and teach them effectively. She will be guided by the spirit, and given the same authority of any male teacher. I love that Emma got to be both a loving companion and an ordained servant in the work. Emma’s life provides a message of hope that, as a woman, I am highly capable of learning and teaching.
Along with encouraging Emma in her pursuits, the Lord assures her that she will be supported by Joseph. Where I am in life, I can understand the relief this encouragement would provide. I am trying to make some major decisions about the direction my life will take. Will I be able to keep a job? What if I get married, will I be able to graduate? Would a degree in a field I love truly benefit me? Not only does God support the righteous desires of His daughters, He also expects His sons to support them in achieving their dreams. I will not only be able to follow my dreams, I won’t have to do it on my own.
I know that God loves me. He loves all of His daughters. This divine love will not leave me without support. I know that I have a very real and important purpose here, and that I am capable fulfilling it. My Father in Heaven will help me to come Home.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Doomsday Tapes
Ok, fine, I guess this has almost nothing to do with the doomsday tapes. But seriously, those things were cool. Theorizing about the future is always cool. Not necessarily accurate, but definitely interesting. In the Book of Mormon though, we see some very accurate prophesying about the distant future. A few simple verses in 1 Nephi tell of the founding of America, in very accurate detail.
In vision, Nephi sees one Gentile, across the many waters from his brethren, who is set upon by the Holy Spirit of God. This man crosses the many waters and is followed by more Gentiles. They drive Nephi's brethren before them and scatter them across the face of the land. Soon, Gentiles are collected upon the promised land.
The next phrase is what really caught my attention: "I beheld that their mother Gentiles were gathered together upon the waters, and upon the land also, to battle against them." Often, the country which owns a colony is called a mother country. Nephi sees these "mother countries" gathering together on the land and the sea. They are gathered against their children colonies. The Gentiles in the colonies have become humble before the Lord, and are given His power with them. Because of this, they are able to fight back and keep their land of promise for themselves.
Reading this long past the time in which the prophesy was fulfilled, I can see the accuracy and meaning behind it. The words which Nephi uses not only portray the historical and physical happenings of the revolution, but also the moral and emotional repercussions and meanings of those actions.
In vision, Nephi sees one Gentile, across the many waters from his brethren, who is set upon by the Holy Spirit of God. This man crosses the many waters and is followed by more Gentiles. They drive Nephi's brethren before them and scatter them across the face of the land. Soon, Gentiles are collected upon the promised land.
The next phrase is what really caught my attention: "I beheld that their mother Gentiles were gathered together upon the waters, and upon the land also, to battle against them." Often, the country which owns a colony is called a mother country. Nephi sees these "mother countries" gathering together on the land and the sea. They are gathered against their children colonies. The Gentiles in the colonies have become humble before the Lord, and are given His power with them. Because of this, they are able to fight back and keep their land of promise for themselves.
Reading this long past the time in which the prophesy was fulfilled, I can see the accuracy and meaning behind it. The words which Nephi uses not only portray the historical and physical happenings of the revolution, but also the moral and emotional repercussions and meanings of those actions.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Tools of a Missionary
With all my guy friends going on missions, it's not surprising that I see the Lord's point very clearly when He emphasizes the importance of the Articles and Covenants in section 20 of the Doctrine and Covenants. Within this precise and condensed section are all the basic keys needed to establish and run a congregation of Christ's true church. From a short history of the church, to the specific jobs of different priesthood positions it covers all the basics.
The start is the history of the church including God's instructions to Joseph. Not only is this historical context, it also has some very strong foundations stones for testimonies. Following this is what the Lord expects of those who read, and what He will do to those who reject the message.
Next come the basic tenants of the church. What we believe, why we believe it, and how much we rely on God and His great plan. A summary of the atonement also is laid out in this area.
Finally the duties of the priesthood leaders and of the congregation of faithful saints are listed. Specifics include the manner in which to preform baptisms, and the line of authority amongst the leaders.
The start is the history of the church including God's instructions to Joseph. Not only is this historical context, it also has some very strong foundations stones for testimonies. Following this is what the Lord expects of those who read, and what He will do to those who reject the message.
Next come the basic tenants of the church. What we believe, why we believe it, and how much we rely on God and His great plan. A summary of the atonement also is laid out in this area.
Finally the duties of the priesthood leaders and of the congregation of faithful saints are listed. Specifics include the manner in which to preform baptisms, and the line of authority amongst the leaders.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
The Greatness of Leadership
My mom will be happy to read this. She loves David McCullough’s John Adams. Actually, she just likes David McCullough’s books. I read a selection of the book for American Government class. This selection was titled “Colossus of Independence.” Since I’m not actually in the class, I sort of did the assignment backwards, and read the piece after watching the movie. But it didn’t matter; both were still very vivid illustrations of the events surrounding the birth of the Declaration of Independence.
In high school, and even college, history classes, the emphasis is often on the overall movements and themes of a time, rather than on the specific people who were the driving force behind these movements. I enjoyed spending time focusing on one man who led the energy of revolutionary America into a tangible document and action.
John Adams not only worked with congress to formulate the idea of a full break with England. McCullough vividly paints a picture of a man who knew what the inevitable action would be and led the country to the point of decision. Watching the movie, I saw his realization of the unavoidable outcome turn into realization that he would have to act as the catalyst toward this outcome.
Overall, I really appreciated this insight into a man who did so much for our country. I wish we studied the people rather than the process more often. This sort of glimpse into an influential life shows how we too can become great. It is normal every day people who change the world. John Adams was a poor author. Thomas Jefferson was a weak speaker. These men had great weaknesses, but they became great leaders. Now I really want to go read more biographies and come to understand what makes leaders truly great. First on the list: John Adams by David McCullough.
In high school, and even college, history classes, the emphasis is often on the overall movements and themes of a time, rather than on the specific people who were the driving force behind these movements. I enjoyed spending time focusing on one man who led the energy of revolutionary America into a tangible document and action.
John Adams not only worked with congress to formulate the idea of a full break with England. McCullough vividly paints a picture of a man who knew what the inevitable action would be and led the country to the point of decision. Watching the movie, I saw his realization of the unavoidable outcome turn into realization that he would have to act as the catalyst toward this outcome.
Overall, I really appreciated this insight into a man who did so much for our country. I wish we studied the people rather than the process more often. This sort of glimpse into an influential life shows how we too can become great. It is normal every day people who change the world. John Adams was a poor author. Thomas Jefferson was a weak speaker. These men had great weaknesses, but they became great leaders. Now I really want to go read more biographies and come to understand what makes leaders truly great. First on the list: John Adams by David McCullough.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
A Marvelous Work
“A marvelous work.” Such an interesting phrase.
In the LDS church, we use it so frequently I sometimes doubt we actually comprehend what it means. This is not a phrase coined by men; rather, it came into use through divine inspiration and revelation from God to men. In my view, this sheds a whole new light on the phrase.
God created so many wondrous things. Mountains, oceans, children, birds. There is so much grandeur in the creations of the Almighty, that it seems quite a high standard to be considered “marvelous” in His sight. The greatness of the world is not referred to as “marvelous” as far as I am aware. Instead, a small, simple book, the Book of Mormon, is termed “marvelous.” When looking at this comparison, it throws a vivid vision of what the Book of Mormon means in an eternal perspective.
Without the Book of Mormon, the works of God would falter and the plan would not progress. Without the Book of Mormon, the world would be a waste. Without the Book of Mormon, there would have been no Restoration as we know it, and the church of the devil would reign. Without the Book of Mormon, all else is empty of meaning or eternal purpose. Therefore, the Book of Mormon is truly “a marvelous work.” It not only is a strong point in its own right, it is also the piece of the plan that ties it all together.
When God declares that “a marvelous work is about to come forth among the children of men,” He is not merely saying that the Book of Mormon is important to the plan. He is saying that it is pivotal and vital to the plan of eternal salvation. When I see the Book of Mormon from this perspective, it is no wonder that the declaration of its imminent emersion into the world is repeated so often in the early chapters of the Doctrine and Covenants.
I’m skimming back over the chapters where this declaration opens the revelation. In section 4, the overall theme is missionary work, in section 6 as well, along with instruction on revelation. These two themes dig deeper into how the Book of Mormon can become a pivotal force in the history of the world. As missionaries spread the gospel, they bring the Book of Mormon to nations and multitudes that had previously not had this knowledge or source of comfort. We all understand this pretty well. But when it’s put in conjunction with the verses about revelation, a new meaning unfolds.
When combined with revelation, the Book of Mormon is not just a source of knowledge and comfort; it also becomes a source of power. The power of the priesthood is explained to us through the Book of Mormon, as are gifts and talents possessed by all. These gifts and talents, if used in a righteous manner, become a power to those who wield them and for the benefit of those they are used for. All who come in contact with someone who has prayerfully studied and understood the Book of Mormon will be changed for the better. This power is the life-changing force that God was anticipating when he declared “a marvelous work is about to come forth among the children of men.”
In the LDS church, we use it so frequently I sometimes doubt we actually comprehend what it means. This is not a phrase coined by men; rather, it came into use through divine inspiration and revelation from God to men. In my view, this sheds a whole new light on the phrase.
God created so many wondrous things. Mountains, oceans, children, birds. There is so much grandeur in the creations of the Almighty, that it seems quite a high standard to be considered “marvelous” in His sight. The greatness of the world is not referred to as “marvelous” as far as I am aware. Instead, a small, simple book, the Book of Mormon, is termed “marvelous.” When looking at this comparison, it throws a vivid vision of what the Book of Mormon means in an eternal perspective.
Without the Book of Mormon, the works of God would falter and the plan would not progress. Without the Book of Mormon, the world would be a waste. Without the Book of Mormon, there would have been no Restoration as we know it, and the church of the devil would reign. Without the Book of Mormon, all else is empty of meaning or eternal purpose. Therefore, the Book of Mormon is truly “a marvelous work.” It not only is a strong point in its own right, it is also the piece of the plan that ties it all together.
When God declares that “a marvelous work is about to come forth among the children of men,” He is not merely saying that the Book of Mormon is important to the plan. He is saying that it is pivotal and vital to the plan of eternal salvation. When I see the Book of Mormon from this perspective, it is no wonder that the declaration of its imminent emersion into the world is repeated so often in the early chapters of the Doctrine and Covenants.
I’m skimming back over the chapters where this declaration opens the revelation. In section 4, the overall theme is missionary work, in section 6 as well, along with instruction on revelation. These two themes dig deeper into how the Book of Mormon can become a pivotal force in the history of the world. As missionaries spread the gospel, they bring the Book of Mormon to nations and multitudes that had previously not had this knowledge or source of comfort. We all understand this pretty well. But when it’s put in conjunction with the verses about revelation, a new meaning unfolds.
When combined with revelation, the Book of Mormon is not just a source of knowledge and comfort; it also becomes a source of power. The power of the priesthood is explained to us through the Book of Mormon, as are gifts and talents possessed by all. These gifts and talents, if used in a righteous manner, become a power to those who wield them and for the benefit of those they are used for. All who come in contact with someone who has prayerfully studied and understood the Book of Mormon will be changed for the better. This power is the life-changing force that God was anticipating when he declared “a marvelous work is about to come forth among the children of men.”
Sunday, September 20, 2009
The Confusing Thing About Roommates
They may seem harmless. Or even worse, wonderful. They may also seem like a terror. Who knows! Don't let the first few weeks decide anything for you. Give it a month or two. Then accept what it is. You can't change them, you can only change you. If you aren't doing anything wrong, don't let them affect who you are as a person. Just try to get along. If you both do your best, it will work out.
And if it doesn't.... well, don't forget that this will only be one year, or semester of your life! Next year, it will be better. Don't allow one moment of now envelope and doom your forever. You have eternity to have fun and wonderful companions in a dorm, apartment, or home. The hard times right now will teach you something that will make you better. I promise. It's happened to me, and it still will. Every year, I'll grow a little more, and hopefully someday that eternal roommate will show up, and I won't have to worry about this again!
And if it doesn't.... well, don't forget that this will only be one year, or semester of your life! Next year, it will be better. Don't allow one moment of now envelope and doom your forever. You have eternity to have fun and wonderful companions in a dorm, apartment, or home. The hard times right now will teach you something that will make you better. I promise. It's happened to me, and it still will. Every year, I'll grow a little more, and hopefully someday that eternal roommate will show up, and I won't have to worry about this again!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Connecting the Verses
Currently I'm in several religion classes. I'm taking Doctrine and Covenants with Ari and we are taking from Brother Holzapfel. Once a week, I go to a special studies class on Revelation taught by Brother Draper. Finally, for my students, including Book of Mormon. The story about the 116 pages is a wonderful illustration of how God uses all his resources to keep his plan on track. Lessons from all 3 classes connect to this, and were constantly coming to mind as I read.
After Martin Harris lost the pages, God's first revelation to Joseph reassures him that "The works, and the designs, and the purposes of God cannot be frustrated, neither can they come to naught (D&C 3:1)." This pairs with a command God gave to Nephi, centuries earlier, to explain how and why he prepares his plans to be fail-safe. Anciently, Nephi wrote and Mormon retained through abridgments not one, but two records of the early Nephite and Lamanite history.
For God to have this ability to back up his plans, he has to have perfect knowledge of time to come. In the Book of Revelation, the script is in a surreal time because God sees what was, what is, and what will be in one eternal now. This does not mean agency is non-existent; it simply means that God sees where our agency will lead. In D&C 5:32, God tells Martin Harris what will happen if he fails to humble himself. This does not mean that Martin will choose that path, it only means that God knows the outcome of the choice.
Reading this, and seeing the connections makes it clearer to me what D&C 3:2 means. "For God doth not walk in crooked paths, neither doth he turn to the right hand nor to the left, neither doth he vary from that which he hath said. therefore his paths are straight, and his course is one eternal round." God travels in a straight and narrow path, but that path encompasses the complete and "eternal round" of all time. He creates His plans within the framework of this path, then puts them into action in a world that exists in all time. We, the people who walk this path, only see a moment of now, and a sliver of what was, but our lives play into the eternal glory of all that is, was, and is to come. Although we cannot see it, God's plan is interlaced everywhere, and what may seem like a small choice (keeping two records) may create a major difference in some other time (a second version kept uncorrupted).
After Martin Harris lost the pages, God's first revelation to Joseph reassures him that "The works, and the designs, and the purposes of God cannot be frustrated, neither can they come to naught (D&C 3:1)." This pairs with a command God gave to Nephi, centuries earlier, to explain how and why he prepares his plans to be fail-safe. Anciently, Nephi wrote and Mormon retained through abridgments not one, but two records of the early Nephite and Lamanite history.
For God to have this ability to back up his plans, he has to have perfect knowledge of time to come. In the Book of Revelation, the script is in a surreal time because God sees what was, what is, and what will be in one eternal now. This does not mean agency is non-existent; it simply means that God sees where our agency will lead. In D&C 5:32, God tells Martin Harris what will happen if he fails to humble himself. This does not mean that Martin will choose that path, it only means that God knows the outcome of the choice.
Reading this, and seeing the connections makes it clearer to me what D&C 3:2 means. "For God doth not walk in crooked paths, neither doth he turn to the right hand nor to the left, neither doth he vary from that which he hath said. therefore his paths are straight, and his course is one eternal round." God travels in a straight and narrow path, but that path encompasses the complete and "eternal round" of all time. He creates His plans within the framework of this path, then puts them into action in a world that exists in all time. We, the people who walk this path, only see a moment of now, and a sliver of what was, but our lives play into the eternal glory of all that is, was, and is to come. Although we cannot see it, God's plan is interlaced everywhere, and what may seem like a small choice (keeping two records) may create a major difference in some other time (a second version kept uncorrupted).
Friday, September 11, 2009
African Slavery - An Insight
In American Government with my Freshman Academy, we were given this prompt to blog about. Imagine that you live in Africa and have been captured by a slave trader and are being shipped across the Atlantic. Write a 500-750 word personal narrative on recording what your thoughts and experiences might be along your journey. As I read it, I almost decided to NOT blog along with my students. Then I told myself that I don't care if it's hard, it'll be good for me. I tell myself that sort of thing a lot, and I almost never regret it.
My mother is gone. And my father. I pray they are safe at home. My little brothers and sisters are safe. All except one. I was told to take them to safety when the white men were seen. But the littlest girl, she is only 3, was not with us. I went to look for her, and that is when they got me. I do not know what is happening at home. I only know I am in this empty ship, and cannot see because of the dark. Others are here too, but not many. Only a few of us will suffer.
It has been days now. More and more people have been brought. The food gets less by the day, and sometimes I don't get any because I am so far back in the pack. They have taken all our clothes. That way they fit more of us in. I cannot move. I hurt all over. Men and women crowd around. When no one fit anymore, the white men closed the lid. We don't get out. We can't. Under us, the water rolls, and I can tell that we are now sailing. I do not know where we are going, only that no one ever comes back from wherever it is.
The crowding is less. Not by much, but they throw the dead over the side. Each body gone gives us room. And we don't eat, so there is no more desire to move. But I still hate it. The old woman beside me is dead. The white men have not noticed yet, and she stinks. I will not say anything though. If I draw any attention to myself, I do not know what they will do. Maybe whip me, or worse. I might even be killed if they are in a bad mood. Who knows, maybe that is a better option then this life. I am lucky to be on the top level. I was on the bottom at first, but I snuck up higher a few meals ago (I cannot count days, I rarely see light.) Now I can breathe just a bit more. But we are more likely to be hit for the slightest sound.
Finally we are out. Naked, chained in rows, we sit on the deck. I do not know what will happen now, but it can never be as horrible as what I just left. I would prefer anything to the living hell of that ship. I'll never sail again.
My mother is gone. And my father. I pray they are safe at home. My little brothers and sisters are safe. All except one. I was told to take them to safety when the white men were seen. But the littlest girl, she is only 3, was not with us. I went to look for her, and that is when they got me. I do not know what is happening at home. I only know I am in this empty ship, and cannot see because of the dark. Others are here too, but not many. Only a few of us will suffer.
It has been days now. More and more people have been brought. The food gets less by the day, and sometimes I don't get any because I am so far back in the pack. They have taken all our clothes. That way they fit more of us in. I cannot move. I hurt all over. Men and women crowd around. When no one fit anymore, the white men closed the lid. We don't get out. We can't. Under us, the water rolls, and I can tell that we are now sailing. I do not know where we are going, only that no one ever comes back from wherever it is.
The crowding is less. Not by much, but they throw the dead over the side. Each body gone gives us room. And we don't eat, so there is no more desire to move. But I still hate it. The old woman beside me is dead. The white men have not noticed yet, and she stinks. I will not say anything though. If I draw any attention to myself, I do not know what they will do. Maybe whip me, or worse. I might even be killed if they are in a bad mood. Who knows, maybe that is a better option then this life. I am lucky to be on the top level. I was on the bottom at first, but I snuck up higher a few meals ago (I cannot count days, I rarely see light.) Now I can breathe just a bit more. But we are more likely to be hit for the slightest sound.
Finally we are out. Naked, chained in rows, we sit on the deck. I do not know what will happen now, but it can never be as horrible as what I just left. I would prefer anything to the living hell of that ship. I'll never sail again.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Blog Renovation!!!
I've been considering making some major changes to my blog, and I now have motivation. For my work at Freshman Academy, I attend class with my students. One of their classes is led by Dr. Holzapfel, my D&C professor. He asks his students to keep a weekly blog relating to what they learn in class. Therefore, I will be posting for D&C. At the same time, I will try to post for my students' American Government class as well.
At the same time, I will try to talk about what it's like living off campus, and being an experienced college student at BYU. It clearly talks about my perspective, but I want to try to help other students succeed. Right now I live in an all-girls apartment just below the hill south of campus. It's a very different experience from the dorms, but I think it's pretty fun. As the year goes on, I will talk about what's hard, what's easy, and such not in my life.
Oh, and I'm totally going to make a new layout and style too!! Super fun! :D
At the same time, I will try to talk about what it's like living off campus, and being an experienced college student at BYU. It clearly talks about my perspective, but I want to try to help other students succeed. Right now I live in an all-girls apartment just below the hill south of campus. It's a very different experience from the dorms, but I think it's pretty fun. As the year goes on, I will talk about what's hard, what's easy, and such not in my life.
Oh, and I'm totally going to make a new layout and style too!! Super fun! :D
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Wow...
I don't even know what to say. General Conference is always powerful. But every year I learn to pay more attention and take more away. Unlike some people claim, it doesn't always bring me peace. I am so stressed, physically, mentally, and emotionally, that I don't think anything will help anymore. The best I can hope is that by applying what I heard, I will be able to pull through.
So much is changing again. I am starting to get used to change. Ever since I got here, just as I get comfortable with life, it changes. I came, and settled in, and then all the big challenges of first semester hit me. Then I got a boyfriend, which I never expected. And then I went home for Christmas, but it didn't feel like home. Then I came back, and was in a different room and new classes. Then I broke up. And now everyone is getting ready to leave and move on. I am not sure I am ready to move on. College moves to fast to allow much time to enjoy the now.
I don't have regrets very often. And this isn't really a regret. I just sort of wish that I had tried to take life slower. It might not have worked, it wasn't always moving at my timing. But it would have been nice. Oh well... nothing I can do, and life is good. So I will move on anyway. I have homework to do and grades to maintain. If I can make it through this semester, I will be fine.
So much is changing again. I am starting to get used to change. Ever since I got here, just as I get comfortable with life, it changes. I came, and settled in, and then all the big challenges of first semester hit me. Then I got a boyfriend, which I never expected. And then I went home for Christmas, but it didn't feel like home. Then I came back, and was in a different room and new classes. Then I broke up. And now everyone is getting ready to leave and move on. I am not sure I am ready to move on. College moves to fast to allow much time to enjoy the now.
I don't have regrets very often. And this isn't really a regret. I just sort of wish that I had tried to take life slower. It might not have worked, it wasn't always moving at my timing. But it would have been nice. Oh well... nothing I can do, and life is good. So I will move on anyway. I have homework to do and grades to maintain. If I can make it through this semester, I will be fine.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Almost Done!
Wow, there is almost no time left at school. This has been a great year. Not easy. Not always fun. But always wonderful. Every hardship I dealt with was so worth it. And obviously the fun times were great! But now the year is almost done. Last year, I couldn't even imagine what college would be like. And now I just want to do it all again. There are things I wish I had done differently, but most everything has been just right.
At some point, I think I will post a more detailed outline of the year. I am often very cryptic. I have hurt enough people by being blunt, that I am struggling to find a balance. But, I would love to summarize my whole year.
But for right now, I wanted to spew (I like that word) about a conversation I had the other day. One of my friends is really into the power of social networking. She and my dad could have a great chat about Web 2.0. She uses her blog to clarify our religious beliefs and is really involved on the online discussion about that. Her blog is really meaningful. I wish I had a meaningful blog.
What I have going right now is good. It's a great way to let my friends know what is happening in my life. But I would like to contribute to my world. That has been something I have always wanted to do.
I wouldn't change this blog. It really is just to let you know about my life. But what would my other blog focus on? I don't have much religious knowledge. I am sad to admit that, but I don't feel that my understanding is adequate to help others. The same with politics. Not only do I not know much, but I don't want a political blog. But what could I do? Maybe an advice blog? Or a story blog? Or I could make a couple and keep them all updated. Comment and give me suggestions! I really don't know what to write about.
At some point, I think I will post a more detailed outline of the year. I am often very cryptic. I have hurt enough people by being blunt, that I am struggling to find a balance. But, I would love to summarize my whole year.
But for right now, I wanted to spew (I like that word) about a conversation I had the other day. One of my friends is really into the power of social networking. She and my dad could have a great chat about Web 2.0. She uses her blog to clarify our religious beliefs and is really involved on the online discussion about that. Her blog is really meaningful. I wish I had a meaningful blog.
What I have going right now is good. It's a great way to let my friends know what is happening in my life. But I would like to contribute to my world. That has been something I have always wanted to do.
I wouldn't change this blog. It really is just to let you know about my life. But what would my other blog focus on? I don't have much religious knowledge. I am sad to admit that, but I don't feel that my understanding is adequate to help others. The same with politics. Not only do I not know much, but I don't want a political blog. But what could I do? Maybe an advice blog? Or a story blog? Or I could make a couple and keep them all updated. Comment and give me suggestions! I really don't know what to write about.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Dance Sport was Amazing!!
I haven't competed in anything for over a year now. I had forgotten how great it feels. When I did Tae Kwon Do, I knew my ability, and it was so fun to, well, show off. Over the past year, I have to admit that I have not done much interesting. At least in the performance world. But I loved it. It's weird. You have something, and when it leaves, you miss it at first, but you get used to it. And then, suddenly, you get another taste. That's when you really feel what you lost. But I am lucky, my taste is just the first in a whole meal.
Today was BYU Dance Sport. For my dance class, I got extra credit to perform. So I decided I would. I didn't even tell my parents. It was no big deal. I practice a lot, and was excited, but it wasn't a huge deal. And then, last night, I was packing my bag, and I realized how fun this was going to be. I thought "I'll get to do this a couple times a year. Neat!"
But today, I realized I wanted more than that. It was amazing! I got cut on the first Cha Cha heat, and the second Swing heat, but I wanted to keep dancing. I already knew I loved dance, but I had always just constrained myself to social, and never expected to perform. But now, I want to perform. I want to practice for hours to look that good. To feel that good.
This morning was so great! :D I loved it, and I will keep doing it.
Today was BYU Dance Sport. For my dance class, I got extra credit to perform. So I decided I would. I didn't even tell my parents. It was no big deal. I practice a lot, and was excited, but it wasn't a huge deal. And then, last night, I was packing my bag, and I realized how fun this was going to be. I thought "I'll get to do this a couple times a year. Neat!"
But today, I realized I wanted more than that. It was amazing! I got cut on the first Cha Cha heat, and the second Swing heat, but I wanted to keep dancing. I already knew I loved dance, but I had always just constrained myself to social, and never expected to perform. But now, I want to perform. I want to practice for hours to look that good. To feel that good.
This morning was so great! :D I loved it, and I will keep doing it.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
The Quote Wall Totally Rocks!!
So, we have this quote wall in my room. Anything highly repeatable, out-there funny, or beyond awkward is at risk to end up on it. Last night, or more like this morning, Ari, Katie and I counted up the total number of quotes. It was exactly 100! It is such an achievement. I doubt anyone else collected 100 quotes in less than a semester. Especially as funny/awkward as these.
At the end of the semester, we are going to post a large number of them online. Right now I just want to give you a teaser taste and mention a couple of my favorites. Sorry, but I won't explain them. Email me or call or something if you just need to know, and I might tell you.
Did you think your pants would just climb off??
Guys, I kinda wanna get married right now.
I'm going to hang up in 3... 4... oh, wait.
I was totally half-indenting to get up!
Alright. So there you have it: your first sample of the infamous quote wall. I really just felt the need to celebrate the 100th quote. It really is an accomplishment.
At the end of the semester, we are going to post a large number of them online. Right now I just want to give you a teaser taste and mention a couple of my favorites. Sorry, but I won't explain them. Email me or call or something if you just need to know, and I might tell you.
Did you think your pants would just climb off??
Guys, I kinda wanna get married right now.
I'm going to hang up in 3... 4... oh, wait.
I was totally half-indenting to get up!
Alright. So there you have it: your first sample of the infamous quote wall. I really just felt the need to celebrate the 100th quote. It really is an accomplishment.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Ghosts
I really don't want to be rude or immature. But let me just put this one out here: why do people from the past have to come and bring up past problems for no apparent reason? It is really hurtful. Just let it go already!!! I didn't do anything. You were a pain beyond all comprehension. And now you are getting mad at me about it?! Just leave me alone. I don't want you haunting me for life.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
I'm Sick and Tired
Very literally in fact. I have a horrible cold, and never seem to get enough sleep. 8 hours 3 nights in a row didn't do anything for me, and now that I am sick, it takes me way too long to do my homework, and so I sleep even less.
All year, I have worked hard at staying healthy. Lots of girls caught something last semester, and I avoided it. But then February came. I always get sick in February. I was a fool for thinking I could avoid it. Despite fighting it, and trying to convince myself and others I am fine, I really can't claim that.
Can I just have a day off from life? Take all my tests and do my assignments in a couple of days? Please? That's the problem with being sick at college: the professors have so many students that there isn't much they will do for one student who gets sick. It really sucks, but I guess I'll just keep working.
All year, I have worked hard at staying healthy. Lots of girls caught something last semester, and I avoided it. But then February came. I always get sick in February. I was a fool for thinking I could avoid it. Despite fighting it, and trying to convince myself and others I am fine, I really can't claim that.
Can I just have a day off from life? Take all my tests and do my assignments in a couple of days? Please? That's the problem with being sick at college: the professors have so many students that there isn't much they will do for one student who gets sick. It really sucks, but I guess I'll just keep working.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Valentine's Day
Ok, great, you want to be sweet and romantic. I totally understand. I like that sort of stuff. I love flowers. I love getting dressed up fancy for a dance. I love being with someone I like (but I have never done that on Valentines day, it is always several someones, which is good too).
BUT... This just gets a little silly. Thanks, but I don't know why we still hand out valentines like 4th graders. I like homemade ones better. You thought about me, and didn't pay anything into the insane commercial side of the holiday.
And everyone hands out chocolate. I love chocolate, but I am trying to be healthy, lose weight and look good. Chocolate doesn't do much for that. Sadly, I have to admit that I did buy candy to share with my friends. But I am keeping it in my room so they can have as much or as little as they want. Come on, this is one day that makes me at least very self-conscious of my looks. All these adorable couples are walking around, and I am all by myself. Apparently I need to do something. Guys just don't ask girls like me out. I don't know why, they just don't. So then I eat chocolate and feel worse. That doesn't make sense. Anyone want to come eat a bunch of Hershey Kisses? I don't want them. Give me flowers any day.
And then there is just the, I don't know... expectation, that Valentines brings. What if you like someone, but that doesn't matter because it just won't work? We feel Single Awareness Day worse than anyone. Or you just don't have a crush so you just don't care? Everyone keeps bringing it up and I am sure at least some of them think "why?!" I mean, come on!!
And finally, for those who have a Valentine, don't you agree that the huge commercial emphasis on the day makes it harder to enjoy? Who needs expensive gifts? Can't you just go to some free activity, just the two of you? If I were in that situation, I would be happy with dinner at the Cannon, the housing dance (for free) and an evening watching a movie. Maybe just us, maybe with some friends. So, if you have dining plan, that adds up to $0.
So why do we all need to spend a bunch of money? To shove the holiday in everyone's face so that some big companies can make money.
OK, I have now joined all the other bloggers who are probably posting about the same thing online today. So that was totally pointless. I just didn't want to put this on FB, cuz I don't want to offend all the adorable couples at BYU. Especially the lobby couples. They're cute; like puppies; and other small animals. :D
BUT... This just gets a little silly. Thanks, but I don't know why we still hand out valentines like 4th graders. I like homemade ones better. You thought about me, and didn't pay anything into the insane commercial side of the holiday.
And everyone hands out chocolate. I love chocolate, but I am trying to be healthy, lose weight and look good. Chocolate doesn't do much for that. Sadly, I have to admit that I did buy candy to share with my friends. But I am keeping it in my room so they can have as much or as little as they want. Come on, this is one day that makes me at least very self-conscious of my looks. All these adorable couples are walking around, and I am all by myself. Apparently I need to do something. Guys just don't ask girls like me out. I don't know why, they just don't. So then I eat chocolate and feel worse. That doesn't make sense. Anyone want to come eat a bunch of Hershey Kisses? I don't want them. Give me flowers any day.
And then there is just the, I don't know... expectation, that Valentines brings. What if you like someone, but that doesn't matter because it just won't work? We feel Single Awareness Day worse than anyone. Or you just don't have a crush so you just don't care? Everyone keeps bringing it up and I am sure at least some of them think "why?!" I mean, come on!!
And finally, for those who have a Valentine, don't you agree that the huge commercial emphasis on the day makes it harder to enjoy? Who needs expensive gifts? Can't you just go to some free activity, just the two of you? If I were in that situation, I would be happy with dinner at the Cannon, the housing dance (for free) and an evening watching a movie. Maybe just us, maybe with some friends. So, if you have dining plan, that adds up to $0.
So why do we all need to spend a bunch of money? To shove the holiday in everyone's face so that some big companies can make money.
OK, I have now joined all the other bloggers who are probably posting about the same thing online today. So that was totally pointless. I just didn't want to put this on FB, cuz I don't want to offend all the adorable couples at BYU. Especially the lobby couples. They're cute; like puppies; and other small animals. :D
Friday, February 6, 2009
As Time Goes On
There are turning points in life. Sometimes you see them coming, other times you realize it when they arrive, and other times it is not until after the fact that you know the significance of an experience.
Graduation was one. I saw that coming. I had no idea what it would lead to, but I knew that life would change. The next week, I began my first job (making bank, I might add) and truly left high school behind.
Moving to college was another turning point I anticipated. Throughout my life, I have been a home-body. Quite out of character, therefore, was my excitement. I was excited to have more freedom, a roommate, a new life.
Roommate, yeah... I didn't see that one coming. It was quite an experience, but that is all that needs saying. I knew, right in the middle of it all, that this would affect my life deeply.
Then there are things I look back at, and realize the huge impact they have had. The most trivial is Harry Potter. With my family, I am a huge fan. I love speculation, and being part of that experience was spectacular. It has shaped my interests and thought processes deeply. I still love speculation, but now I put that passion to deeper, and somewhat more applicable uses (doomsday tapes anyone?).
Then there are all the other turning points I am too lazy to list. Some hurt really bad. Others are really fun. Whatever it is, a turning point makes a change in not only my life, but in my personality. Just like everyone I meet shapes me, everything I go through changes me. I am grateful for everyone of these changes. No matter how hard it was, it made me learn something. I am a better me because of every turning point in my life.
Graduation was one. I saw that coming. I had no idea what it would lead to, but I knew that life would change. The next week, I began my first job (making bank, I might add) and truly left high school behind.
Moving to college was another turning point I anticipated. Throughout my life, I have been a home-body. Quite out of character, therefore, was my excitement. I was excited to have more freedom, a roommate, a new life.
Roommate, yeah... I didn't see that one coming. It was quite an experience, but that is all that needs saying. I knew, right in the middle of it all, that this would affect my life deeply.
Then there are things I look back at, and realize the huge impact they have had. The most trivial is Harry Potter. With my family, I am a huge fan. I love speculation, and being part of that experience was spectacular. It has shaped my interests and thought processes deeply. I still love speculation, but now I put that passion to deeper, and somewhat more applicable uses (doomsday tapes anyone?).
Then there are all the other turning points I am too lazy to list. Some hurt really bad. Others are really fun. Whatever it is, a turning point makes a change in not only my life, but in my personality. Just like everyone I meet shapes me, everything I go through changes me. I am grateful for everyone of these changes. No matter how hard it was, it made me learn something. I am a better me because of every turning point in my life.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Missionaries Rock!!!
I was so surprised and pleased to see Graham today! He is going into the MTC in a few hours. I was just in the Wilk, and said hi to Jasper and Sean. They were both like "Hey Clarissa. Look, it's Graham!" At first I was a bit confused, and then I turned around. He looked so sharp and ready to go, in his suit and tie. It was amazing to see my home teacher preparing to go serve. He will be amazing.
This was a real blessing to see him. I have been having a really rough week, and it was inspiring to see him. His parents were with him, and he is ready to go. Two years in Paraguey (I think that's right)! Just thinking of missionaries makes me happy, but seeing a friend leaving is even better. Thanks to all you guys who are going out to serve. You rule!!
This was a real blessing to see him. I have been having a really rough week, and it was inspiring to see him. His parents were with him, and he is ready to go. Two years in Paraguey (I think that's right)! Just thinking of missionaries makes me happy, but seeing a friend leaving is even better. Thanks to all you guys who are going out to serve. You rule!!
Monday, February 2, 2009
Third Tries a Charm
I tried to write this 3 times now. I can't do it right. Ben already made 2 posts. So I can do it too. I want to write something, but not on facebook where people I don't know read it all the time.
Ben and I broke up. He was acting weird all day, and then he brought it up. It's for the very best reason: his mission. He does need to get ready, but this is still so hard. I don't like sticking my emotions online, so that is all I'll say. I just thought I should record it. I did write in my journal for like 1/2 hour earlier today. Don't know where to go from here... I never had a boyfriend, so I have never broken up before. Plus, I never saw my friends break up. So this is all new. Huh...
Ben and I broke up. He was acting weird all day, and then he brought it up. It's for the very best reason: his mission. He does need to get ready, but this is still so hard. I don't like sticking my emotions online, so that is all I'll say. I just thought I should record it. I did write in my journal for like 1/2 hour earlier today. Don't know where to go from here... I never had a boyfriend, so I have never broken up before. Plus, I never saw my friends break up. So this is all new. Huh...
Monday, January 26, 2009
What I Think about American Heritage
I am bored. And I tired. And don't think I have enough posts on here. I am actually going to email you friends of mine to let you know I have a blog. I need to look at my old posts. I can't even remember what I have written.
Anywho... Since a new semester has started, I thought it would be fun to write a bit about each of my classes. I am in American Heritage right now. I almost posted my notes, but then realized that it didn't make sense to anyone but me. We are talking about the commerce clause from Article 1 of the Constitution. More specifically, we are discussing the case US vs. Lopez, 1995. We are debating whether or not the commerce clause is a valid argument for the gun-free school zone federal law. The court ruled that the commerce clause was being read to broadly, and the federal government did not have a hold on this case.
There, those actually are effective notes. I really like this class. It is easy to be distracted, and some of the reading is way to long in my opinion, but overall it is great. We discuss current events and the founding of America at the same time. Like we talked about Obama to understand who qualifies as a "person" under the Constitution in our days and when the constitution was established.
We have two text books, The Constitution: A Biography by Amar and The Thirteen American Arguments by Fineman. I love the Fineman book. Amar's is very interesting, but also very long and slow. Fineman takes a wide view and makes his discussion of hot debates very useful and understandable. So I reccomend both of them if you like history or politics. But if you don't have much time, Fineman's reads much more quickly.
I might post again later. I want to share the joy of my dorm with everyone. And sorry to everyone I forgot to tell about that. Most no one knows I have this. But I want to change that. So yeah... Talk to you later! :D
Anywho... Since a new semester has started, I thought it would be fun to write a bit about each of my classes. I am in American Heritage right now. I almost posted my notes, but then realized that it didn't make sense to anyone but me. We are talking about the commerce clause from Article 1 of the Constitution. More specifically, we are discussing the case US vs. Lopez, 1995. We are debating whether or not the commerce clause is a valid argument for the gun-free school zone federal law. The court ruled that the commerce clause was being read to broadly, and the federal government did not have a hold on this case.
There, those actually are effective notes. I really like this class. It is easy to be distracted, and some of the reading is way to long in my opinion, but overall it is great. We discuss current events and the founding of America at the same time. Like we talked about Obama to understand who qualifies as a "person" under the Constitution in our days and when the constitution was established.
We have two text books, The Constitution: A Biography by Amar and The Thirteen American Arguments by Fineman. I love the Fineman book. Amar's is very interesting, but also very long and slow. Fineman takes a wide view and makes his discussion of hot debates very useful and understandable. So I reccomend both of them if you like history or politics. But if you don't have much time, Fineman's reads much more quickly.
I might post again later. I want to share the joy of my dorm with everyone. And sorry to everyone I forgot to tell about that. Most no one knows I have this. But I want to change that. So yeah... Talk to you later! :D
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